Posted on Oct 18th, 2007
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dave
Pretty psyched-- been on the move looking for a place in Boulder. The first one I found which was very nice, fell through. Being an extreme optimist (basically, only willing to focus on what i want), I of course figured it must be because something better was in the works (the first one had flooding in the base level). Not to say I didn't feel worry at any point, i certainly did, but when I feel that I just get focused on what I want-- and feel the relief of that. And that was a more modern, more centrally located, flood proof place to live (who took dogs). ;)
So I got just that, just in time. Found it on craigslist, and the owner of the place is an absolute angel. Things could not be better. The place is even elevated for snow/rain with underground parking beneath it for the winter. Sweet. This will be my first time commuting to a job in 4 years, so I am happy to see life is taking it easy on me. ;) Scraping cars is not one of my favorite things to do.
This is a big move for me. Historically I have lived in places where I felt left out, not really a match to the types of people around me. Of course, it isn't until we find a way to love where we are that things change, and that is what happened. While sometimes I like to complain about the bad parts of Jersey/Philly-- in recent months I have really come to love it. And that wasn't because I wanted to move, it was just because I wanted to find a way to love where I was, quite simply. Noone likes looking around and feeling shitty about where they live. Life sort of brought me to them since I focused on them so much) with the intention to find a way to feel great even tho there were crack dealers walking around. lol What I had to do was just take them out of the equation, and get focused on the potential of these places-- and once I did that, I began to see signs of their restoration, and noticed that most people's spirits were high and ready for change-- the change had begun, but I wasn't looking for it, so didn't see it in some places.
It's been a very inspiring last 5-6 months. :)
Now I am very joyfully moving to Boulder to continue to participate in this here Zaadz/Gaia project, to have the time of my life making sure we stay focused and on our mission. Hardly a job with so many people that 'get it' around, but a fun one for me, nonetheless. :)
If you live in Boulder or Denver and want to hook up one of these days, always up for a good time. ;) You know where to find me.
Keep it realz.
Dave
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Posted on Oct 24th, 2007
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dave
I would say, "keep doing what you're doing! You are on a good path." ;)
Then I would say, "Try to get to the beach a little bit more over the summer."
Rough life I have... ;)
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Posted on Oct 25th, 2007
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I had suuuch a good time last night with a group of my friends. Since I am moving to Boulder next week-- it has been a good reason to have as much fun as possible with my friends in Jersey before I go. I think I fell asleep laughing-- to give you an idea.
Going to sleep in such an elevated state always produces good dreams. When I was 14 I started recording my dreams every night, and did so for almost 7 years. I stopped after that because my memory got so good that I no longer needed the practice of recording them to remember them. To be honest, I don't go back and read them, I just did it to get used to remembering them. During that period I found I had 3-4 dreams which i remembered every night. I experimented with lucid dreams and out of body experiences with a lot of success.
Last night was the propper prelude to a night of good sleep, and I had a very strange dream where I was back in my old highschool-- except it was futuristic and highly modified. I was sitting in a classroom listening to some boring lecture-- but still in a really fun and gitty sort of mood. At first I was really confused as to what I was doing in school, so I started questioning my surroundings. It didn't take long before I realized I was dreaming. It is always interesting when you get to that point where you realize you are dreaming, yet you have the same control over thought that you do in your waking state. Not always sure what to do with that, so I still just play around with it. I have used it in the past to get out of body, but it takes some prepaving of intentions to do that, so the idea didn't occur to me while in my dream state.
Anyway, so this teacher is up in the front of the room blabbing about something I could care less about, and my classmates were all in their mid to upper 20s, and I knew I would never put myself in that situation (not really a fan of schooling), so that is what tipped me off. So I sort of just said to myself, "oh, I see, I am dreaming, this makes sense", and looked around deciding what to do. I didn't feel like I could wake myself up, and I was sort of eager to see what I could do, so I got up and left the classroom-- embrasing this new reality which I was in.
All the usual things happened around me-- teachers calling after me, a few hall monitors and what not- but i just ignored them.
So now I am walking around, repeating to myself, "i'm dreaming, i'm dreaming, this is a dream, this is a dream", until I had thought it enough that it became a permenant part of my dream experience. Dream characters looked at me strangely-- because as I looked at them, I thought 'they are a dream character, what could they possibly have to say?!" So I just walked around the school and decided if I could do anything, I just wanted to start having fun again, right away. So I thought of my friends from the night before, and of course they are all there in the school, and we just started running around-- getting out of that feeling of 'there is something we have to do', and getting into 'we are here to have fun'. And it was a very interesting process of how the changes in my thought produced a different reality in my dream. Just like my waking life. :)
To fun!
:)
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